This appointment will most likely only be a consultion. There are still other things such as botox injections that he will probably want to try before surgery is even considered (I may unfortunately have to make multiple trips to Arizona). I have had a few hours relief from a pudendal nerve block and most of my symptoms are characteristic of pudendal neuralgia (PN). But I have also been diagnosed with sacroiliac joint dysfunction in the past. I have had physical therapy manipulations of the SI joint, worn an SI belt to stabilize my pelvis, and tried an SI joint injection with no relief.
While it seems most likely that PN is the correct diagnosis, I worry that maybe I have waited 7 long months for this appointment in Phoenix for nothing. Maybe the doctor will not think I have PN, then what will I do next? Did I make the wrong decision to go to Phoenix? I have prayed about this decision a lot and even pray now that if it is not the right direction to take that God will not allow us to go to Phoenix.
It is easy when we have big decisions to think and worry that the final outcome is dependent on ourselves. That we could choose to do something that is outside of God's will for us. But I am not so sure that is really possible for those who are called children of God. Proverbs 16:33 tells us,
"The lot is cast into the lap, but it's every decision is from the Lord."God in his divine providence is working all things according to the counsel of His will (Ephesians 1:11). Nothing happens by chance. Even our "bad" decisions are being used by God to bring about His purposes. Verses like this and Proverbs 16:9 and Isaiah 46:9-10 bring great encouragement to me in times of doubt and worry especially concerning decisions.
If God is control of the outcome of the blind casting of lots, I know that I can rest assured that God is in control of my life! Whether I go to Phoenix and have a confirmation of my diagnosis of PN and get treatment or I go and find out there is nothing they can do to help me, I know God is working all things for my good and His glory (Romans 8:28)!